29.9.14

Loff week - What i'm into (last week of september )

If you follow me on instagram you probably notice i'm pretty inspire last days. I'm feeling very happy. Good moment to creat New stuff. Here, some light tracks (the heavy one come later) and imagens:


















                     














BYE






26.9.14

I'ts called love, and is so uncool


But is the only thing that's worth living for.




I must say: the last year Was totally mess. My mom dies last october and since then i Was acting kind of strange with myself and totally offline from world. I Was living, going out, moving from another country and "having fun".  But the last weeks i just realize i'm start to waking up, slowly, just now. And for the first time since all that sad stuff happend, i'm happy.
The thing is, how difficult is realize you are not 100%? How long you take to fix your heart  and mind?
I Was talking with some friends last night, girls night, and is fucking absurd how crazy we are when we start date someone. How much expectations women put on a casual kiss. Freaky, really.  And when sex are involved, we fake we are not surprise about the last day call never happend. Come on, 2014 and this bullshit still on???  You can say  you are not "that type" but even if you are not a casual dates addicted a guy can fuck you and disappear , so its not your problem exactly.
I Was kind of involved with a guy, not my type, don't know whats happend to be honest. Totally cute, but the opposit of my type you know? He is young and we have very different lifestyles. But he does the magic. The magic is: you are not into a guy but you Was bored so, sometimes you go out with him, but after a few times, he start to disappear and don't give you much attention. You start to Get crazy because you even Was into him. And the game starts....
After his magic, ye, i Get crazy obssessed. Any of my friends Was believing whats going on, i just became a insecure and totally annoying woman. And trust me, i never give a fuck about this type of thing, so Was a New thing going on.
After exactly 7 miserable days without a "after sex call" and overthinking about this every single day i take a cold shower and realize how idiot Was my behavior , and for the first time i understand my female friends complaining about and had a little of compassion,
What i discover in my girly bored days: at first, if you want someone, you need to play. Unfortunatly . Men are fucking rats. I'm sorry guys, but we need to be honest. When a girl are too much into you, is boring.
After  realize this i just loose my interest for him. I just feel lazy to do all the stuff and act bla blá blá blaaaaaa szzZzZZzz.
Just one lucid though and whats happen? He appear! Better then never.
So now, i'm healthy and having fun, and if the good sex stay, good, if don't... Well if don't we always have ex boyfriends.

Kidding.  Anyway, you need to treat your love life kind of on background. Because don't depends only for you, so have huge changes to don't work well. We are Successfull girls, controling our own life. If work well, amazing, super hot. If don't, you have your work, your friends and you hot body to explore. Put all the love on things you know will make you feel good. Don't loose your time hottie! Rule the world and stay RAD! AS IF!



Love you gals,
C




31.8.14

You are good enough - Get the right bananas - FOR MY GIRLS



I just receive two emails today and was pretty sad. The first one was a guy calling me names and saying terrible things. I think probably is someone who i match on tinder but never go out with. I have this problem, i wish to go for a date but a few hours before i just overthink and cancel. I know is super annoying, i understand. But i don't have enough balls or patience at the moment. And i was very busy organizing my life here and writing all the time. 
The first thing you do when someone say bad things about you, probably is feel sad, before think if this are true or not you feel sad, maybe because is very frustrating someone "anonymous" who you probably don't even know in real life stop his life to write bad things to you. I really don't get that. I feel in the high school when this type of thing happen. The thing is, how we should deal with this? Why women always belive in this type of bullshit? 
The second email was a girl talking about her tinder dates, she had 18 dates just on the last month. So brave. btw we love her. The fact is, when she said "don't work, i'm sorry" for all the guys, 12 just call her a bitch or something like that. Pretending don't give a fuck and acting in a not respectfull way.
How unfair is this? This is so primitive, this guys look likes monkeys. Maybe is better date monkeys. They can offer you the right bananas.
  Why most of people need to make the other feel bad when the things are not the way they plan? Is easier make bad choises. Because when you do the right thing, the feeling of "care" come with. And is not exactly cool. When you start care with each others is impossible take it back. When you start to believe everyone have something good is impossibl to take back. Can be naive? Maybe, but is real. Sarcarm is totally more charming, sexy and misterious, but don't "darling" me you know? Always sound fake. 
The thing is, we women need to be more true with ourselves. You diserve what you think is good for you and what you put some effort in. Start to be the woman you wish to be. And what type of guy this woman, if she need one(maybe don't) want to have? We are so young, and so cool, that's no point to worry about this type of "problem". So relax, and if you think the bad things is  true, talk with someone who really know you well, they will tell you the truth and probably if they agree with the stranger will warn you about. Probably you don't have nothing to worry. Be faithfull with yourself. Is pretty cliche but kind of hard to put this on practice. We are always changing our plans if "that" guy call us. How silly and dumb is that? So don't be so available if you don't feel is fair with yourself. Do your thing,  and if someone really like you, he will try all the always to be with you somehow. So don't worry, will happen. If you are sure about who you are, everything will be amazing. Just need time alone and some self exploration (ok this sound naughty).
Don't stay too much time on the BHH(Black Hole Hostel), is cheap but not confortable. If you are more then one week you need to go out and need to see more things. And be there just because the guy you like pass around sometimes, is totally unfair. So go out. Run around. The reviews on trip advisor abou BHH are sad, just saying. You can stay one, two days be miserable and that's enough. REFRESH! Pussy power biatches.


Love you,
C.


22.8.14

ABOUT: TINDER DATES

(So at first i need to say, my english can be pretty bad sometimes. But i will not write in portuguese anymore because, well,  im living in London, and im able to learn witht my mistakes, so please you are more than welcome to correct me. )

YOU NEED THIS MUSIC TO READ MY STORY.




Guys... ye, i know what are you thinking.. Really, Tinder as a subject? Thats right?
YES. Yes because here in London, Tinder works in a totally different way. Can i be honest? I have exactly 284 guys waiting for my answer or for i just say something. Thats freaky insane. I'm too full of myself? Not exactly. I will clarify your mind.

When i was in London last summer tinder wasn't borned yet. The guys here will not approach you in the nightclubs, gym, streets or pubs. No.. pretty difficult. But now, looks like a new era. THE TINDER ERA. So cyber, so 2014. I'm feeling so trendy.


After you push right side on tinder, you just wait a few minutes, and yes, he will not just say hello and how are you, but he probably will ask for you " lets go out for a drink tonight". I just felt scared, how easily this guys go out for a drink with strangers. The weird part is, they are incredible good looking (my selection, sure). 
I think on tinder you feel confident because, when you approach a girl or a guy in a club you are totally out of your confort zone, because maybe she don't like you. And on tinder you already have the approval so, pretty easy. I founded good ones there, but i'm not sure about go for a tinder date. Maybe i should go out with these 284, ops 285 now, sorry, and see how this works. I can, acctually try different characters on this dates. Or this is messing around with this lovely tinder guys maybe? Ok, i will not be mean. I can pick five and go out and see whats happen maybe. My way to do this is very simple. 

" - Hey tinder guy number 34, i'm going have some drinks tonight at _______ with friends, you should come with your friends"

Too cold? Too safe? Probably for me is the only way. I'm afraid. Serial Killer is not a trendy anymore so, yes, is dangerous.  I'm up to that. I will pick some different styles, from different areas, and if you have some suggestion, like how i should choose, or maybe suggest "Carol wear different wigs on dates",  i'm open to listen. 

Gramma, don't be afraid, i'm ok here and enjoying London. 
ITS RAINY MEN.
kidding





LOVE,
C.


19.8.14

HELLO LONDON




(Feeling home)


So at first i need to say, my english can be pretty bad sometimes. But i will not write in portuguese anymore because, well,  im living in London, and im able to learn witht my mistakes, so please you are more than welcome to correct me. 
I dont know exactly how to starts this, but after think lots i just realize, is better write the more personal things right here on my website.
So, mostly, i will write here about exploring this town calls London, going to the weirdo places ever and the poshy places ever, because god blees im really good in pick a style and get deep into. So, yes, probably will be pretty fun. 
I just arrive 5 days a go and i can say i had just surprising and amzing time here.
I will try quikly clarify for you guyssss:

DAY ONE - 4PM
My flight was the worst flight ever, really. But im here, safe and sound, and i need to figure out things and do what every normal human being do when arrive to a new city. Check my tinder. 

DAY TWO - 10AM
I probably get a flu or something like that because im feeling kind of bad. Im feeling weird to be honest, my english is faar away to be amazing, and i cant properly express myself to be honest. Im doing well but, you know, im soooo cool and funny in portuguese, im looking ridiculously serious here. Maybe im asking too much for my second day. Lets see whats happen.
So, I founded a gym. HOTTEST GUYS EVER. But ye, i cant be me at moment so, im shy.(what a joke).  What i can do to back to recognize me? Where all my confidence? Carollllll heeeelllooooo??????????

I can still complaining..or, i can go find something to figure me out. So i founded. Lets take a pole dance coreography class!!!!!! 

ONE HOUR LATER:
IM FEELING AMAZING. YOU GUYS SHOULD TRY. IM WRITING IN CAPS LOCK BECAUSE IM FEELING MYSELF AGAIN. HELLO WORLD. HELLO LONDON. HELLO FLOWERS. WAS SO EASY.


THURSDAY - 
I run like, more than one hour and i had a zumba class. Yes, im really into get fit, and really into gluten free too. Doesnt matter. The thing is, im so tired.. i will get a shower and sleep.

11PM - Ohhhhhhhh a friend from brazil just calls. Not really a friend. A friend of a friend. Im with my facil mask on but, ye i will gonna clubbin tonight. I'm going to Maddox in Mayfair. Never been before. Lets see whats happend.

Guys, i was even notice, but after that, my adventures starts in London. So i will think about that, if you guys deserve details or not. Was 3 days/night of lots of fun. Or kind of fun? Oh shit.. I need to focus. 

I'm back soon.


Yes, such a cheesy picture just to shw you guys, how the air here helps my hair and skin. Blah! Fab!



XX, 
C

4.7.14

Fav tracks of the week


Hello, hi, whats up tigers. Junkie week. So i decided: detox for me. I will try this next week meditate every day, write lots and eat healthy...Ye, and i can party, but i will drink water. Pretty fair. 
So, i'm stayin' at home most of time, and here is what I was into to this week.

PRETTY FAB (FAVS EVER):




EASY LISTEN:








Here is the soundcloud link
https://soundcloud.com/carolina-loff/sets/fav-tracks-first-week-of-july


LOVE
C



offline days actin' weird


And suddenly you know: It’s time to start something new and trust the magic of beginnings.


1.7.14

Fun Stuff Without Meaning

























HEAVY

Why God



When did I realize I was God? Well, I was praying and I suddenly realized I was talking to myself. I'm not trying to be atheist or something. I just think your mind can change everything. And if you want to be anything, you will. Stop praying and start to live your dream. Fuck off the rest or what people think. Be gentle and and greatfull with the others, even with the bad ones. Just don't let them bring you down, trust in yourself and embrace your weirdness! Your life your rules! (remember: you don't need to be a bossy fucking rude bitch to have what you want. Spreding love is the hottest way).

LOVE,
C

Jamie



Ye..you guys right..Maybe i should give more attention for my writing. I'm just overthinking about everything. Have lots to write. I'm just moving soon so you know that moment "waiting", ye, worst ever. So i'm trying sleep lots and drinking lots. But ye, doing this you can get tired and bored too. God bless music. I'm alive. That's what i'm into to the last week:










Keep Clubbin' tigers.